Sitting here crying, because I’m going to be unhappy no matter what happens.

If I get the job, I have to leave Ronan.  I don’t care that it’s only 3 days a week.  I want to be here with him, that’s the way this is supposed to work.  Mom’s are supposed to be able to take care of their children.  Screw this damn country, and their lack of realistic maternity leave. 

If I don’t get the job, we’re broke.  Or I have to go back working at my old job, which is full time. 

This is just crap.  A crap situation.  The government needs to take the idea of “professional mom” and make it real.  Pay women to stay at home, and raise their children.  Make it possible to be a good parent. 

I hate this.