Interesting when you stop to think about it…

I haven’t made a post about being sad, or lonely, or home sick in a long time.  Even when I’m down, it’s for completely normal and mundane reasons – a bad day at work, or sick with a cold.  Life goes on, no?  Do we get used to being where we are, or do we just find new ways to deal with it?

I still don’t have many friends.  I still miss my family like crazy.  But I’ve been calling my mom less and less (sorry mom!).  She always says that she can tell how things are going in my life by how often I call her.  I miss Crystal terribly.  I wish we didn’t live so far apart, or that travelling wasn’t so incredibly expensive.  We’ve been emailing very frequently, and it’s sort of neat… she’s always been my best friend, but she – every now and then – reminds me why.  She is such an amazing person.

She wrote me this the other day.  It made me cry a little, but I was complaining to her about the same things I blog about. 

“You know what makes me so happy… is when you
write to me or text me with all the great things about Brock.. it’s few
and far between when I get an email or text about something he does
that upsets you.. Your both so lucky to have each other. Obviously I
know you better than I know Brock.. and I know what you are like.. 😉
haha.. your sensitive. muh, I am too.. haha, so I know it’s hard to
deal with things.. and it’s frustrating when the guy doesn’t “know”
what we are thinking or feeling. i think you guys have each other figured out.. and I know your both so very happy together. :)”

I always hope she knows how thankful I am that I have her as a friend.  I try to tell her as often as possible.

Anyways, back to the real topic.  I don’t know if it’s because we’re getting married, or because things have been going so well, or because of work.  It’s so very tough to say what becomes different.  Even when things are going badly, I don’t slip into that depressed place, where I can’t find my happiness.  Even though I am sad when Brock is mad at me, I don’t fall down there. 

I guess it’s just easy to be happy when you are happy.